Noone stood beside behind above or beneath me.
But one stood right in front
that i could not contain it anymore
for the love overflowed
and the things of the world faded away

You know, its been a long time since I've truly blogged an emotion filled entry. But today, I just felt I had to.


I've been going church for 1 year going on two now. I wont say that's a very long time, but its a long enough time for me to know most of the songs, to know the styles of preaching, to know the system of what comes next. It's long enough to make me feel confidant, to make me know the 'methods' and 'signs' of a healthy cell grp. Its a long enough time for me to know when there's a mistake done on stage, and its a long enough time that I know or feel if the spiritual atmosphere is good or not.


Its a long enough time for me to know all these things.
It's a long enough time for me to get used to all these things.



but



it was also a long enough time, to forget what coming to church meant to me...



And today... as pastor prayed, I remembered.



I remembered how it felt, when i first came to know God, the first weeks when i worshiped God. How i didnt not know the words, the lyrics, the sequence, the moves. How I must have seemed like the most awkward and wierd person there, beating the jump beat and jumping when i was not supposed to.

But back then... I knew the love I had for Him, and I knew the love He had for me... My mouth might not have been loud and my singing might not confidence, my jumps and claps might have been out of beat. But in my heart, I was worshiping with such joy, such love!


And i remembered the tears that flowed. The tears that flowed, not because someone back slided and I was sad. Not because I felt my burdens lifted up by God, Not from or of the bad things that seem to happen in my life.


I felt the tears flow because, God was so near! Because I felt so close to him, my tears flowed because I was touched... That at that moment, at this moment, there wasnt a person on my left or right, there wasnt a person in front or behind me anymore...



But it was just us....... Just me and Him...



And things that seemed to matter so so much.
Would just became so so small.


Somehow, along the way, I seemed to have forgotten all these...


But it came back... and i remembered...


Me and abba. That's all that matters, really.

TAKE ME TO THE PLACE

WHERE THE SPIRIT OF GOD IS

HOLY GHOST, EMPOWER ME

RUN WITH THE GOSPEL

I'LL CARRY REVIVAL

THE LOVE OF CHRIST

WILL SET YOU FREE