Its 2.18, and i couldnt get to sleep.

I wonder if anyone's still up? Of course, in this time and age, i could just check msn.

Let's see, I have 26 "friends" online.

But none whom i feel like talking to. Gee, I'm really bored.

There's two pillows on my bed and one quilt and one blanket.

A total of 5 books are on my table now.

I'm using a JBL speaker and a Macroview moniter.

I have a miniature salt and pepper schnauzer named aphro.

It's a she.

I love Aphro.

Ya'all reading this better love her too.

Haha, good night.

Noone stood beside behind above or beneath me.
But one stood right in front
that i could not contain it anymore
for the love overflowed
and the things of the world faded away

You know, its been a long time since I've truly blogged an emotion filled entry. But today, I just felt I had to.


I've been going church for 1 year going on two now. I wont say that's a very long time, but its a long enough time for me to know most of the songs, to know the styles of preaching, to know the system of what comes next. It's long enough to make me feel confidant, to make me know the 'methods' and 'signs' of a healthy cell grp. Its a long enough time for me to know when there's a mistake done on stage, and its a long enough time that I know or feel if the spiritual atmosphere is good or not.


Its a long enough time for me to know all these things.
It's a long enough time for me to get used to all these things.



but



it was also a long enough time, to forget what coming to church meant to me...



And today... as pastor prayed, I remembered.



I remembered how it felt, when i first came to know God, the first weeks when i worshiped God. How i didnt not know the words, the lyrics, the sequence, the moves. How I must have seemed like the most awkward and wierd person there, beating the jump beat and jumping when i was not supposed to.

But back then... I knew the love I had for Him, and I knew the love He had for me... My mouth might not have been loud and my singing might not confidence, my jumps and claps might have been out of beat. But in my heart, I was worshiping with such joy, such love!


And i remembered the tears that flowed. The tears that flowed, not because someone back slided and I was sad. Not because I felt my burdens lifted up by God, Not from or of the bad things that seem to happen in my life.


I felt the tears flow because, God was so near! Because I felt so close to him, my tears flowed because I was touched... That at that moment, at this moment, there wasnt a person on my left or right, there wasnt a person in front or behind me anymore...



But it was just us....... Just me and Him...



And things that seemed to matter so so much.
Would just became so so small.


Somehow, along the way, I seemed to have forgotten all these...


But it came back... and i remembered...


Me and abba. That's all that matters, really.

TAKE ME TO THE PLACE

WHERE THE SPIRIT OF GOD IS

HOLY GHOST, EMPOWER ME

RUN WITH THE GOSPEL

I'LL CARRY REVIVAL

THE LOVE OF CHRIST

WILL SET YOU FREE

Song title: Oceans Will Part

If my heart has grown cold
There Your love will unfold
As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand
When I’m blind to my way
There Your Spirit will pray
As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand

Oceans will part, nations come
At the whisper of Your call
Hope will rise, glory shown
In my life Your will be done

Present suffering may pass
Lord Your mercy will last
As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand
And my heart will find praise
I’ll delight in Your way
As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand
As You open my eyes
To the work of Your hand

Jasmine Tan, take a break :-)

See it to belive it

Jasmin Tan Fusion, this is for you. Haha enjoy

Your smiles, your pearly whites
Your words, ah the delight!
Like Red roses,
gorgeous to see
Hidden thorns, ugly glee


Why then admire,
Why then touch?
Why bother? When it draws fresh blood?
The pain though not immense,
hurts the heart, oh the Heart!


Why then admire?
Why then touch?
Why bother? When it draws fresh blood?


Cause a gardener I am,
and dear plant, you're my friend.


That's why I admire,
that's why I touch.
That's why I bother,
though it sometimes hurts the heart.


Because I believe. Oh yes i do.
That one day you would bloom
One day, one day soon
A day in a bride's loving hands,
lovely and beautiful,
with no more thorns pricking,
No More, amen.

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AHH!!!

Mavis. I love you.