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I have too much time on my hands.

I'm friendster surfing, can u imagine?! Friendster surfing?!


Everyday starts like this. I wake up, i eat breakfast, i sleep/surf/watch tv/ until 12, I eat lunch, I send my dad to physio/acupuncture, I reach home at 5, surf/watch tv till 6, eat dinner, surf/watch tv/call people, then I sleep.

I wake up and restart the cycle.

Argh, Can u imagine how boring this is?! I'm getting fat, I'm getting stupid from lack of brain stimulation, and I am not having fun!

to top that off, I'm having stomachaches now so i cant even enjoy eating.

I gotta set my goals up again, move move move oh lazy body of mine.

No more suppers ( Which I dont really enjoy in the first place. ) , No more sleep ( Which always makes me more tired ) , No more random surfing ( which I still feel bored )

Exercise! Reading! Learning!

Off with the old me!

1. Jog
2. Swim thrice a week
3. Get a economics book and get started
4. sign up for a course

Come on Chris! You only live ONCE!

Ok good, now I'm pumped up :)
I needed this.

Anyway, to motivate myself.

Marielle jogs 2-3 huge rounds around the field EVERYDAY, since I last saw her, she has lost 3 or 5 ( I cant remember ) KGs, based on her own determination.

Joo joined SOT inspite of the odds that are against her, going one step closer to her dream, to her calling.

Huanxin scared a 4.something in his aggregate for uni so far, maintaining himself as one of the top students in uni. A student from a neighbourhood, gangster secondary school and the louiest JC at our time. He has proven, its never the environment that determines what you achieve.

Yong Heng is a cell grp leader at 19.

Benard, Jasmine, Yanbing started their own online business. And to top it off, Yanbing started her buisness at 16!!! And earned a substantial amount, which I would not disclose. But if you knew, you would Definitely be humbled.

Ah Bong pays for her own tuition fees, living expense, and overseas exchange program.
She teaches tuition and working at a pub until late at night. And inspite of the burden she carries, she is one of th most generous people I know, never hesitating to spend money to do things we want, even though the stuff we eat or do might be expensive.

My life is surrounded by inspirational people.

So tell me, if you're reading this. What's the greatest thing you did so far in your life?

:-)

Photos

Photos!

The great brig grin



Birthday Girl



Notice how weiming seems to wanna kiss kristin?








Kelly hard at work preparing refreshments, wahahhaha!



Me lemuel and bing




They say the way



to a men's heart,



Is through his stomach! Doing well, yanbing, ahhaha!



Secret Selegie beancurd discovered at yishun






Yeap, the head is definitely smaller



3.2 cm










King Eng seng




And that's all folks!!!

flow like the river

Flow like the river
Shimmer Shimmer Shimmer
Flow like the river
Submerge immerse dive
And for the first time
Breathe, breathe, breathe
And for the first time
Feel the life of the river
The excitement, the rush, the flow
Feel its joy, its sadness
Feel the freedom and the burden
And flow like the river


I just read bong's and dine's and hui's blog. I realise you know, that by reading, you can almost certainly tell what that person is like. While I read bong's blog, i can feel her joy from love, i read hui's blog, i can see her vulnerability, when i read dine's blog, I can read her angst and incredible strength in wanting to move on.

Each describe their life and feelings so so well. Angst, joy, strength.

And I really wanna be able to bring across my feelings to the world, to you who's reading this, I wanna let you enter my world, enter my feelings in life. But I often think to myself, how?

How in the would do I put across what I'm feeling now?

A rising sun? The birth of a child? A cross? A young couple? A old couple? Laughing children? Complete families? a meandering stream? The stars that light up the night? A lone candle?

How in the world do i put to words hope?

A hope that tomorrow is gonna be better then today?

Haha, a tomorrow better then today. Definitely.

AS promised! Hope this brings to your face the grin it brought to me! HAHAHA


hahaha, I have NO IDEA why this tickles me so much!

Alright

Alright! its been a long time since I last really blogged so lemmie see... I passed my driving. I'm getting baptized this saturday. I'm gonna ORD in june. I Might be a physical trainer at California fitness ( cool eh? )

So yeah, its been hectic this few days, and I'm not sure why! Isent it supposed to be like, my holiday? But then again, I'm happy when i'm busy doing stuff I love. I master the four basic cords on the guitar! Sort of lar... You know, I'm really interested in the whole music thing. Other then the fact that it makes a person cool, music really moves your mood.

And I look forward to the day I'm able to play a song and sing. I dont aspire to be on stage and be awesome, but being able to play a song, maybe sing to the girl I like. Wow, thats for me.

Dig this, I was just driving my dad to the hospital for physio therapy today and i decided to bring my guitar to practice... So anyway, i drove my dad's camery , and its like, I felt so cool walking out of the car and carring the guitar. Hahahhaa

You know what i mean? Cause normally people who carry guitars take mrt or buses, and people who drive are like, towards wealth and buisness pattern. But when i walked out with the guitar I felt so balanced in life, althought the car isent mine.

Know what i mean!??!?!?!?! I doubt it. Its like, there's this mix of art and buisness, yeah...

And Junyu! Haha Better pass your Ippt this sat. I L O V E D the joo gu li ( Chocolate ) Joke, its really a different level, ahhahaa!

I dont really have any inspiration to blog but i dont wanna stop typing either. lol Baptism on sat...

" To immerse. "
Immerse. I like that word!



Wierd. I thought I'll be ok
But i still felt sad
when i knew wont be there
Too much to hope for
Too much

I really like mornings. Somehow, that sunrise, the shimmering light, the call of the mynas, the smell of the grass, the look of people busy getting to work of school.

Makes me energized and rearing to go out there and be happy!

hahaha, oh, and Charrisa's grinning face would make anyone laugh! Hahaha I shall shall to get her to send me that photo, and show u guys. Hhahahaha

Burden

Its heavy.


But on a side note, I passed my driving! WoohoooO!

You search

You search the world for yourself
The highest clouds,
the deepest caves.
The darkness of death,
The desires of heart,
The urge of acceptance.
You search the candles of hope, only to be burnt by its flames
You once looked at the light,
but now the it stings your eyes.

The night is your companion.
loneliness you have over for dinner
You sleep without dreams
and call it rest.

Dreams, desire, destiny,death
Destruction, despair, delirium.

Delirium, who was born delight.
Yes, i belive thats the sentence i was looking.
Delirium, who was born delight.

So what are you now?
Do you delight?
Or are you just delirious?

Benny Hinn

Really Long Entry. ( RLE ) haha, so dont bother reading if you're not gonna finish it.

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The first time I heard of Benny Hinn was from Marielle.

I remember her telling me really excitedly about singing in choir.

I remember how she said, he waved his hands, and everyone fell so smoothly, so fluidly, so perfectly.

I remember wanting to feel that. What does it feel, to fall under the presence of God? I remember too, that i wondered to myself, if it were all fake.

I grew up cynical. I grew up knowing magic has its tricks, ghosts were a part of your mind, fortune tellers were hoo haa. And i guess you could say there's some good in that.
Superstition, i called it.

Fast forward.

Here I stood in white and black. I didnt really expect this day to come. When i would be in the shoes of which mel wore that two years back.

I didnt care if I knew the lyrics to every song. I didnt care if I could sing in tune or pitch. I didnt care if i looked good or stupid in the crowd.

I remembered mel saying how awesome it was to fall. And that was all I could think of. Would tonight be the night?

Let's fast forward again. It was the third night. I served on the friday and there was no laying of hands, no slaying, no falling. I saw what happened on saturday. And now it was sunday.
Triple. That was what was promised. Triple.

As the lights beamed into my eyes. I heard it.

" Choir join hands across the...( This was it ) "
" are you read... ( its coming! ) {{Is it real?}} "
" Lift your hands and pr ( God, I really want this, I want to feel it, i want that annoint...{{If everyone is holding hands. as long as one fall, all would fall}}..ing )

I didnt hear pastor say anything. A war waged within me, struggling with my desire to belive. And with the cynical heart I had.

I felt people falling. I wanted to peek. I didnt wanna be the only one stan..... Whoosh.

And I was down. Pushed back onto the chair. ( was that the po {{ of course I fell, they were holding my hands}}..wer? )

I opened my eyes. I could hear people around me laughing, i heard them cry, I felt some shake.
And though i was on the ground. I looked at the ceiling and wondered. Was this it? This is what I was so hungry for? Whoosh, bam. Ceiling?

Then I heard Pastor say, double. And i heard the people around me laugh even harder! I looked around me and saw literally EVERYONE laughing! And at tat point I felt a trinkle of it, how ridiculous this looked, how I should just let go. Stop thinking and feel.

I did, and I started grining and laughed a few times. Before tearing up.

Much as I wanna say I got it, I felt it, it was awesome. I cant lie.

All I got was a trinkle. I wisp of it. The rest were in the river, where i stood at the outskirts and admired.

I felt really lousy. And i mean REALLY lousy. Was my heart that hard? That even though I was in a river? I could only admire its beauty? What a waste! What a pity! And why?? Am I not hugry enough? I even forced myself to be awake at sermon just so I can catch every single little bit!

As i went home, I was so tired. And it just kept kept bothering me, why why why could i get the fullthing?

I went to bed after a short prayer. I look at my computer and contemplated. Hillsongs? Or Jack Johnson. Hillsongs.

I closed my eyes. " God, I really want to feel what they felt. "

* Ok, here's where the real story begins *

As I listen. I could hear a choir behind the worship. It sounded really beautiful. And then it Hit! All over again, I was in the choir! The same bright yellow lights, glaring into my eyes.

Touch.

I opened my eyes. Except that they were closed. And right there and then, in my own room, I finally felt his touch.

I tried moving my hands and I couldnt, I tried getting up and I couldnt! And as i laid there, all I saw was the indoor stadium, the thousands upon thousands of people worshipping. And I felt waves of goosebumps flowing upon my body. The way light glistered on the surface of the river, the spirit flowed and glistered upon me...

And i just laid there. Resting. Resting from physical tiredness, resting from the burdens I carried in my heart, resting in the peace and assurance that God knows what i'm going through, and he understands. Resting in the knowledge that all things would be ok.

And even today as I walk around in camp. I still feel that glister on me. Light reflecting off a flowing river.

And I knew! Its not hypnotism. Its a in the moment thing. It not influence because all the rest were laughing. Its not because they held my hands!

And God chose a time and place. Where there are no pastors, where there were no friends, where there were no choir, where there was noone who could do or say anything. And there he chose to touch me. That I know, that it wasnt a human trick, it wasnt just simply an imagination in my mind. There was simply no other reason i could think of.




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Wikipedia Slain in the Spirit

Being slain in the Spirit occurs in many contemporary Charismatic or Pentacostal church meetings. It was also extremely common in early American (late eighteenth-century) Methodism, particularly at camp meetings and love feasts. Many refer to the phenomenon as "falling under the Spirit's power", "falling before the Lord" or "resting in the Spirit". They call it resting in the spirit for it is said in Psalms 23:2 which says "He lies me down in green pastures; He leads me beside quiet waters."(New American Version).

And so there I sat beside the water, admiring its glistering beauty.

And there I rested.

Awesome.