As I bid farewell to this blog, I bid farewell to the memories here as well. There has been some good moments, some amazing moments and a few breathtaking ones.
But with it comes buried dreams, irrevocable mistakes, lost friendships, broken promises as well.
It is nostalgic , and even as I write this, I do contemplate if I should read this book for one last time.
But maybe not. A new book has yet to be written. Much work to be done.
To the different people that has impacted my life in the past... Thank you.
To the very little that have literally changed the course of my life... Thank you.
To that one or two, that belong to "kodak" moments, I sincerely wished it had turned out different.
" The path of the righteous shall shine ever brighter. "
May the Lord guide our steps, our paths. Till we meet again =)
Saturday, February 27, 2010
Sunday, September 27, 2009
Let your dreams fly free.
When I was a younger man, or boy, I lived very much on inspiration and emotion. You could say one of the reasons why I came to church in my early days was this. I loved the inspirational pep talks of Pastor Kong, and on the emotional high of sermons on chasing your dreams!
It really seemed so simple back then, as though once you get inspired, excited. Well, dreams will come true.
But I realized with the fulfillment of any dream, comes the price of sacrifice. The sacrifice of time, of effort, even the sacrifice of your old character. Such that n new a better one would emerge.
I remembered the night just as if it was yesterday, when I stood at the living room of bullion park, looking out towards the pool. The voice of pastor ringing in my mind, and I couldnt sleep. God showed me a vision then, I saw before a congregation maybe 200, 300, 1000 strong.
I dont really remember falling asleep that night, and it felt so real, so strong that call of God.
But yet in the months following it, I fell in love with a girl, and exchanged my relationship. For 3 years, I lived my life worshipping another. Not so much the person, but rather the feeling of infatuation
I often wonder where would I be today, if I had made a different choice. Now in 2009, that was a decision I made 8 years ago. A vision I saw 96 months back.
Thinking of the past, brings to remembrance many things, many people. Even many versions of myself. I remembered a time when my blog entries was all about girls, or maybe a single girl, the current one I had a crush on. I remembered how I would talk about how cute/pretty/hot/ blah this girl and that was, and that was pretty much what filled my mind.
Looking back, I must have seemed so shallow. So.. simplistic. So hollow. Surely Life, has a greater meaning and purpose.And indeed it does.
In just a few months time, the course of my life would meet yet another landmark. And like so many times before, it's gonna take a whole new level of faith, and its gonna bring me to a whole new realization of the person I can be. A step into the dream I had many years before.
To let my dreams fly free, it does not depend so much on inspiration. But more on revelation and obedience. I've discovered not to live on the emotion, but to exercise persistence.
Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.
When I was a younger man, or boy, I lived very much on inspiration and emotion. You could say one of the reasons why I came to church in my early days was this. I loved the inspirational pep talks of Pastor Kong, and on the emotional high of sermons on chasing your dreams!
It really seemed so simple back then, as though once you get inspired, excited. Well, dreams will come true.
But I realized with the fulfillment of any dream, comes the price of sacrifice. The sacrifice of time, of effort, even the sacrifice of your old character. Such that n new a better one would emerge.
I remembered the night just as if it was yesterday, when I stood at the living room of bullion park, looking out towards the pool. The voice of pastor ringing in my mind, and I couldnt sleep. God showed me a vision then, I saw before a congregation maybe 200, 300, 1000 strong.
I dont really remember falling asleep that night, and it felt so real, so strong that call of God.
But yet in the months following it, I fell in love with a girl, and exchanged my relationship. For 3 years, I lived my life worshipping another. Not so much the person, but rather the feeling of infatuation
I often wonder where would I be today, if I had made a different choice. Now in 2009, that was a decision I made 8 years ago. A vision I saw 96 months back.
Thinking of the past, brings to remembrance many things, many people. Even many versions of myself. I remembered a time when my blog entries was all about girls, or maybe a single girl, the current one I had a crush on. I remembered how I would talk about how cute/pretty/hot/ blah this girl and that was, and that was pretty much what filled my mind.
Looking back, I must have seemed so shallow. So.. simplistic. So hollow. Surely Life, has a greater meaning and purpose.And indeed it does.
In just a few months time, the course of my life would meet yet another landmark. And like so many times before, it's gonna take a whole new level of faith, and its gonna bring me to a whole new realization of the person I can be. A step into the dream I had many years before.
To let my dreams fly free, it does not depend so much on inspiration. But more on revelation and obedience. I've discovered not to live on the emotion, but to exercise persistence.
Hold fast to dreams
For if dreams die
Life is a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.
Sunday, June 28, 2009
Man its dusty in here!! Look at them cobwebs! But anyway, HELLO WORLD!!! So its been centuries since I last blogged, so here I am again, trying to see if I remember the what and hows of Blogging!
Well, to sum things up on what has been going on the past few weeks or months or centuries, after the previous school term I had a short 2 week break before summer semester. And This is the LOUD CAMP season! CRAZILY busy and I mean crazy. I would meet up either the cg leaders, or the team leaders every alternate day or even more! With 7 days, every week 1 day would be taken up for planning, one for meeting team ics, one for looking for probs, countless hours searching cheers and imagining how the process of the camp would run
and any remaining minutes would be spent cramming for my studies, giving tuition and of course going out with joce! ( ha! )
So yeah, thus the reason for no updates in the blog. But Thank God, I think the camp turned out well, and most importantly, every cg that was in yellow house Grew!!! It felt AMAZING. And it still feels so today. Loud camp really united the teams and drew out the loud shout/scream/cheer spirits in the people!
I secretly think that if anyone or everyone had a choice, they would wanna be loud, they would wanna be the person or the group that eludes the most confidence and noise. Yup, I believe everyone wants to be part of a vocal, loud , and chatty group rather then the silent and solome one!
It's all just about expressing yourself after all =)
Yup, so with that over and the first half of summer over, I'm havin a little bit of a lull peroid! Today to be exact, and BOY it feels good to have nothing to worry about. It feels good knowing there's no assignments to rush.
But in my spirit, I feel it moving into position, gearing up, getting ready. I wanna run again!
Does it get tired?
yeah.
Does it seem overwhelming at times?
Sure.
Do I ever feeling like giving up? Running away? Living the live over the fence?
All the time!
But man, I feel excited somehow! Cause it feels like God is just preparing the next adventure and challenge. And I wanna get my gear ready, and once again scale that mountain!
Well, to sum things up on what has been going on the past few weeks or months or centuries, after the previous school term I had a short 2 week break before summer semester. And This is the LOUD CAMP season! CRAZILY busy and I mean crazy. I would meet up either the cg leaders, or the team leaders every alternate day or even more! With 7 days, every week 1 day would be taken up for planning, one for meeting team ics, one for looking for probs, countless hours searching cheers and imagining how the process of the camp would run
and any remaining minutes would be spent cramming for my studies, giving tuition and of course going out with joce! ( ha! )
So yeah, thus the reason for no updates in the blog. But Thank God, I think the camp turned out well, and most importantly, every cg that was in yellow house Grew!!! It felt AMAZING. And it still feels so today. Loud camp really united the teams and drew out the loud shout/scream/cheer spirits in the people!
I secretly think that if anyone or everyone had a choice, they would wanna be loud, they would wanna be the person or the group that eludes the most confidence and noise. Yup, I believe everyone wants to be part of a vocal, loud , and chatty group rather then the silent and solome one!
It's all just about expressing yourself after all =)
Yup, so with that over and the first half of summer over, I'm havin a little bit of a lull peroid! Today to be exact, and BOY it feels good to have nothing to worry about. It feels good knowing there's no assignments to rush.
But in my spirit, I feel it moving into position, gearing up, getting ready. I wanna run again!
Does it get tired?
yeah.
Does it seem overwhelming at times?
Sure.
Do I ever feeling like giving up? Running away? Living the live over the fence?
All the time!
But man, I feel excited somehow! Cause it feels like God is just preparing the next adventure and challenge. And I wanna get my gear ready, and once again scale that mountain!
Saturday, June 13, 2009
Thursday, May 14, 2009
I got my results back!!!!!!!
And i did well this semester! Much much much better then all my previous semesters!
But! I'm not done yet! This period has been the creaziestly busy since I've started school, but God is faithful indeed!
New level, new devils though...
Things have been happening although very very little people know about it, and the future seems a little unpredictable ahead.
But I heard an interesting phrase today
And I just want to experience that!
Thinking that something seems impossible to achieve,
and hearing God laugh.
wow.
So anyway! Going PS cafe with Joce tomorrow! I cant wait!! I love the food at PS cafe, and the ambiance is just awesome! It's rare to spend quality time together and I'm gonna savor every single second of it!
Ok! Off to bed!
YELLOW!
And i did well this semester! Much much much better then all my previous semesters!
But! I'm not done yet! This period has been the creaziestly busy since I've started school, but God is faithful indeed!
New level, new devils though...
Things have been happening although very very little people know about it, and the future seems a little unpredictable ahead.
But I heard an interesting phrase today
" I really thought it was impossible, but when I saw what happened, when I saw the results,
It felt as though God laughed "
It felt as though God laughed "
And I just want to experience that!
Thinking that something seems impossible to achieve,
and hearing God laugh.
wow.
So anyway! Going PS cafe with Joce tomorrow! I cant wait!! I love the food at PS cafe, and the ambiance is just awesome! It's rare to spend quality time together and I'm gonna savor every single second of it!
Ok! Off to bed!
YELLOW!
Tuesday, May 5, 2009
Thursday, April 30, 2009
I dont understand this feeling, this dislike, this dark undercurrent for I cannot find the reason of its existence. But it exists, its there, and it burns.
Weird, weird. The type of burning where with the want to overpower, to simply show who is better.
Well, I already do know of course. But this thing inside, urges me to flaunt it. Be pressed under the thumb.
Not a desire to win, but a dark yearning to crush. Crushed till you can climb back no more.
Dark indeed.
What a dislike for hypocrisy and gossip, espcially when most have looked but do not see.
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Just the thought, burrows my eyebrows.
But! after this, I let it go =)
Weird, weird. The type of burning where with the want to overpower, to simply show who is better.
Well, I already do know of course. But this thing inside, urges me to flaunt it. Be pressed under the thumb.
Not a desire to win, but a dark yearning to crush. Crushed till you can climb back no more.
Dark indeed.
What a dislike for hypocrisy and gossip, espcially when most have looked but do not see.
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Just the thought, burrows my eyebrows.
But! after this, I let it go =)
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